I’m just wondering… Why does life seem so good one day than just switch and everything goes wrong the next?

I’ve met several ppl in my life some ppl I cherish and respect with all my life but sometimes, I just feel like these ppl don’t really deserve all that respect. Ever wondered how sometimes you do something or not do anything and then u get fucked for it? Even tho it’s not your fault.

I’ve learnt one thing in life and that’s this; these are the ppl that are just not worth it. There are more things in life than just dreading over what they feel or felt or what they intend to do or not do next. I’m just so sick and tired of helping ppl and being there for ppl. I have to be there for ppl all the time, but no one’s ever there for me. I have to be somewhere all the time if not I’ll lose something or someone. Fuck lah; nothing in this world revolves around anymore, stop being so self-centered. I just cannot take it anymore. ARGH!

But then again, there’s nothing I can do really about them. I just have to go about with my life nonchalantly and ignore them. I hate being ignorant but hell… some ppl just deserve it lah.

Gonna be one hell of a hectic month. Work and work and more work. Then I’ve got sit and organise food for my dad-in-law’s birthday. I’ve got to think of what to get for my boss for his house-warming - any ideas? I need a job that doesn’t require much thinking. hmm….? I’m just so tired half the time. i don’t think i’m any fun to Shaun anymore… My poor baby… I’m just glad that he’s being a sweetheart.

Come to think of it, I’m glad that he’s in my life. If not for him, I’d still be clubbing every night. I’d still be spending my hard earned money on minute things. Sad pathetic life it was then… it’s ironic really… Club every night, meet different ppl blah blah blah but you just ain’t happy end of the day. Now I club when I have to, and I’ve met more friends that I can ever imagine. I’ve got more of a life now. It doesn’t really matter than I’m bigger than I was before. It doesn’t matter that I don’t fit into my extravagent clothes. It doesn’t matter than my hair or my skin doesn’t look good. All that matters is I’ve got a good healthy life and great company.

Going to sentosa every weekend is a darn good idea. Taking up scuba diving is a darn great idea too. I’m not missing out on my previous life at all. I’m just looking forward to what’s to come in the future. Thinking back, going out all night wasn’t a good idea. I wasn’t a very good example to my sisters and I’m the eldest somemore. I’m embaressed come to think of it… ha ha i’m starting to think like my parents now, cannot make it…

Oh well… life will be such. It’s goona be great one time and then it’s gonna be sour the next. But it’s always a experience. Always good to learn new things I suppose. I’m just wondering, wat’s my next destination gonna be… Till then…