MySTiQuE~FaRLEnE
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.I’m not cute or built to suit a fashion model’s sizeBut when I start to tell them,They think I’m telling lies.I say,It’s in the reach of my armsThe span of my hips,The stride of my step,The curl of my lips.I’m a womanPhenomenally.Phenomenal woman,That’s me.I walk into a roomJust as cool as you please,And to a man,The fellows stand orFall down on their knees.Then they swarm around me,A hive of honey bees.I say,It’s the fire in my eyes,And the flash of my teeth,The swing in my waist,And the joy in my feet.I’m a womanPhenomenally.Phenomenal woman,That’s me.Men themselves have wonderedWhat they see in me.They try so muchBut they can’t touchMy inner mystery.When I try to show themThey say they still can’t see.I say,It’s in the arch of my back,The sun of my smile,The ride of my breasts,The grace of my style.I’m a womanPhenomenally.Phenomenal woman,That’s me.Now you understandJust why my head’s not bowed.I don’t shout or jump aboutOr have to talk real loud.When you see me passingIt ought to make you proud.I say,It’s in the click of my heels,The bend of my hair,the palm of my hand,The need of my care,’Cause I’m a womanPhenomenally.Phenomenal woman,That’s me. ~Maya Angelou~
What the heck have I done….?
Alamak… I dunno how I’m gonna cope with work and law school. All the books I have to read, all the case laws I have to research and READ! Why didn’t I pick some other course that was less demanding, like everyone else….? Sometimes I can be too dumb for my own good lah. The amount of stuff I have to read is scary ah… Like one book is not enough, I have like 4 books to read on one subject and several other case laws, law journals etc etc.
Haiya…. Stress ah… How lah….? Now that the financial thingy has finally been taken of, It’s the education thingy that’s gonna be the thing that’s gonna KILL ME!!! ARGH!!!
Come to think of it, I think I am just scared ah. I’m gonna do my degree and the pressure is really on. My mom’s spent a shitless amount of money on me and my degree. I can’t let her down this time. Education is one thing, and me building my future starts now. I can’t spend the rest of my life depending on Shaun or my parents.
My dad was right to say "how long do you think Shaun’s going to support you? He’s going to stop one day when he’s had enough." Papa is right. It’s ok now i suppose, since both of us are working now. He’s gym, hopefully opening soon. (Looks like I’m the lucky wan… I stayed…) But what will happen when the money stops coming in, like it is now…? What happens when only one of us is working and the other is just doing nothing…?
It’s really hard to think about it lah now, we don’t really know what’s going to happen in the future. My parents are bugging me to get married (yes i know, there have been alot of not so subtle hints) and there are others out there who are bugging me to have a kid…
Alamak, pls lah… I am not going to be one of those who stay home and do nothing but cook, clean and look after the family. I’m not saying that it’s bad, I have lots of friends who are very happy doing that, and I respect them and all but it’s just that I’d rather do that when i’ve turned 60 or something or when my life is fully established and I have a shitload amount of MONEY!!!
My mom’s a career woman… Look at how i’ve become…. Career’s important, especially living in Singapore. I’ve got to pick up the pace. I’m not going to survive with just a diploma. I’m not going to survive earning minimal income for the rest of my life. Hey, I’ve even got investments going on ah… don’t play play… But the time i’m 36 and if i’m not married, at least I can afford my own house without the help of my parents. Also, have enough money to be a single parent… (like real… u know I can’t stand kids… But JJ’s sssssssssooooooooo cute cannot make it!!!) Sigh…. I still don’t feel any better… After saying that man…
i just hope that with all the shit that I’ve got to put up with now, with school and all the financial stuff, it will all benefit fit me in the future. I just wish that it would be in the near future… 
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