MySTiQuE~FaRLEnE
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.I’m not cute or built to suit a fashion model’s sizeBut when I start to tell them,They think I’m telling lies.I say,It’s in the reach of my armsThe span of my hips,The stride of my step,The curl of my lips.I’m a womanPhenomenally.Phenomenal woman,That’s me.I walk into a roomJust as cool as you please,And to a man,The fellows stand orFall down on their knees.Then they swarm around me,A hive of honey bees.I say,It’s the fire in my eyes,And the flash of my teeth,The swing in my waist,And the joy in my feet.I’m a womanPhenomenally.Phenomenal woman,That’s me.Men themselves have wonderedWhat they see in me.They try so muchBut they can’t touchMy inner mystery.When I try to show themThey say they still can’t see.I say,It’s in the arch of my back,The sun of my smile,The ride of my breasts,The grace of my style.I’m a womanPhenomenally.Phenomenal woman,That’s me.Now you understandJust why my head’s not bowed.I don’t shout or jump aboutOr have to talk real loud.When you see me passingIt ought to make you proud.I say,It’s in the click of my heels,The bend of my hair,the palm of my hand,The need of my care,’Cause I’m a womanPhenomenally.Phenomenal woman,That’s me. ~Maya Angelou~
I just cannot take it anymore… everything i do is wrong, everything my cats do are wrong… everything and anything everyone else does is all o..BLOODY…k!
THIS IS THE SHITS!!! I really cannot take it already… I don’t understand, am that big a pushover that everyone somehow somewhere down the line always takes advantage of me?? I don’t get it… I try to be a good friend, sister, daughter, GF and be there for everyone, but than they all turn right back around and fuck me right up! and than there’s the family… always giving something or anything for something and anything in return. Than there’s the office. Just because i can’t say "NO" does not mean that i am happy doin it!
I don’t get it! the reason for being in a relationship with someone is because you like being with the person, security and just at peace with yourself and with the other person. when u accept each other’s imprefections. since when have i become so judgmental towards my loved one??? I’ve no idea how or when i learnt this…
I can’t remember when was the last time someone hugged me to sleep (and sleep peacefully at that)? i can’t recall when was the last time someone just held me just cause and not cause they want something in return? and I don’t understand y everyone has to be so damn demanding?? "Oh u don’t wanna come stay with your parents so no more money for your degree?"; or "u didn’t show up at my wedding, so I’m pissed at you!"; "U’re staying with us, so u’d better do something in the house or cook and/or clean, when u wake up better say "good morning" and not "hi" or say "good night" before you go to bed i.e. be the fucking maid, or we will treat you like CRAP!" There were also friends who lied to me about being their god-damn guarantor for their housing loan just to FIND OUT THAT IT’S FOR THE FUCKING LOAN SHARKS!!! damn bitch!
NOTHING I DO IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANY OF YOU AND YOU CALL URSELVES MY FRIENDS!!
wanna know what else is funny?? I buy something nice for myself and I am questioned!?!?! what the fuck la?? I USE MY OWN DAMN EARNED MONEY DON’T FUCKING QUESTION ME LA AND WHAT I DO WITH THE FUCKING MONEY! AND I’LL DO WHAT THE FUCK I WANT WITH THE OLD FONE!
I REALLY CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!! so how do you find the words to say that it’s over?? really… HOW? Why is life so fucked up?!?
