I’m about 4 months & 2 weeks to-date. Time flies when u’re having fun huh…?

Doc confirmed that it’s a boy… highligted the kotek and all and i’m so very very grateful to GOD that it’s a boy. All my life i’ve always wanted a brother and i am so grateful now to be blessed with a son.

I shall name my son, De Silva Luqas Alexander. which means the Bright and Great Leader. He will be due sometime in late May/ early June 2009. I can’t wait to have him in my arms.

Well obviously only the ppl i really truly like will be the Godparents. Therefore the official godparents will be Shane (Shaun’s brother) and Angie (Shaun’s Aunt).

The unofficial God-dad is obviously my god-bro Kit. Although he seems to always be doing the disappearing act these days…

Should shane and/or angie not be able to be the GOD Parents, so be it… I’ll ask around for others to be god parents. BUT THERE IS A PERSON OR 2 WHO I KNOW WILL JUST DIE TO BE THE GOD PARENT OF SHAUN’S 1ST CHILD BUT NO!!!!!!!!!!! OVER MY FREAKING DEAD BODY!!!! SHE MAY BE IN SHAUN’S LIFE SO BE IT I CAN’T STOP THAT BUT I CAN STOP HER FROM BEING IN MY CHILD’S LIFE SO….. WHEN MY BABY COMES AND I FIND OUT THAT SHE EVEN DARED TO BREATHE MY BABY’S NAME, SO HELP ME GOD… Just stay out of my life ok…??

Anyways, Shaun & I are so excited to have the baby… I can’t believe that we got the cot and the pram and the play-pen all ready when Zander’s still 4 1/2 months away. We’ve got some really really cute clothes for him all ready to wear when he comes home. The cats are also excited and awaiting his arrival. You can tell really, Tigger’s always sleeping on my tummy and hugging it to sleep; Patches & Marmalade get very very protective of me when Tigger does try to climb onto my stomach (ever so gently so as not to hurt me).

Zander’s got his 1st football boots and teddy all ready from Grandmama.

I didn’t have the easiest 1st trimester and it’s was the most difficult either. I didn’t get morning sickess as often as i should have. I only got it if i didn’t watch my food/diet. Zander at 2 months (still in my tummy mind you) refused to let me keep down anything fried, greesy in short anything unhealthy. The only things that he did let me keep down were veggies and fish and fruits. That’s all. This baby is gonna come out all healthy and fussy with food just like his daddy. I just hope he continues to wanna eat veggies.

I can bearly wear anything without showing, but at the same time, I can still wear everything I own, I just can’t seem to zip it up. So i usually wear my jeans unbutton and pray that it stays up.

I know that Zander may be a little small now, but I think i definately felt him kick the other day. I was talking to him the other night and he must have either agreed with me or not, and I felt a thud from inside me.

Zander’s a fiesty little thing. The Doc did an ultrasound check on me when i was about 14weeks 5 days and you could see all Zander’s arms & legs formed and he was kicking and punching and he hated that there was something pushing against my tummy and just like me, he refused to sit still. Right there and than, I fell in love with my son. My Son… I still can’t believe i’m having one of them… it’s so hard to believe that i’m going to be a mummy… I nvr thought that i could ever have the opportunity to be a mummy after all the shit and bad stuff i’ve done before. I always thought that my punishment would be that i won’t be able to have a child but here I am…. going to have a baby in 4 1/2 months… and the feeling could not be any more wonderful.

I think i shall keep updating my blog so that when the time comes, Zander may get to read it and see how much i love him even before his arrival.

Will update journey of the 5th month shortly.