I’m just sooooo exhausted…

Maybe going back to school was just too much for me, especially Law School… I really doubt that I can make it… I’ve got a shit load of reading to do most of the time, I really don’t have time for anything at all. I don’t even have time for myself.

I spend most of my time at work, if I am not at work, I am at school. If I am not in school, I’m at home doing my reading or catching up on my sleep time.

I am one person who has to sleep alot, and it’s really tiring that I am lacking in that department.

I really feel bad that I don’t even have time to spend with my family. I haven’t seen my parents for 2 weeks and I feel really really bad. My parents have always been there for me and I can’t even spend an hour with my parents.

I don’t even spend time with shaun and we’re living together…. I’m on my computer half the time doing my work or doing my reading that we rarely sit down and do the things we used to do.

I just wish that there’s somehow I can manage my time. I really cannot take it anymore… I’m really really really just so tired……

Nothing much happened this week.

I got my laptop, finally….

Mama is a year "younger" and Papa has finally got his driver’s licence again after years and years of no wanting to driver, he has finally given in to my mama.

I was thinking of actually going on another trip. I wanna go to Batam again but this time I wanna really enjoy it there. I wanna do all the activities that they have and just enjoy the weekend. Was thinking of a 3 days 2 nights thingy. Strictly a-la "ClubMed".

I’m sure it’s going to be a hell of a trip.

It’s just one of those days when u just feel like you just need to add another post into the blog…

I’ve got nothing to do with my life so I just resort to work and studying and more work.

School’s just crappy as ever. We did nothing in class on monday, we just sat in the lecture theatre and listened to the lecturer go on and on about memory techniques… Last I checked, I did the same thing in poly ah…? Irritating ah…. IT’S A FUCKING DEGREE COURSE LA!!!! LAW DEGREE!!!! YOU EITHER CAN DO IT OR YOU CAN’T. IF YOU CAN’T THAN TOO BAD YOU’LL FAIL AND CARRY ON WITH LIFE!!!

So annoying… They keep stalling our student handbooks and everything else… They have no idea what they doing la… First was the payment thingy… They think $10,000 is no big deal la… If my mom ever finds out that they are so unorganised she’s going to scream at them.

I can’t remember if i said this in my last blog, they made us sit for a stupid math test la laslt week. Hello…. I slogged 5 yrs of my life in secondary school so that I’d pass my maths exam at the end of the yr now 10 yrs later, they expect me to remember everything that i learnt 10 bloody yrs ago…? RIDICULOUS!!!

haiya… we’ll see what we see la… If i survive this yr we’ll see what happens next year la.

HOOYAH!!! It’s the weekEND!!! Enjoy the weekend while it lasts ya’ll!!!!! It’s only 2 days!!!!

To all ya’ll who’s got to work, ENJOY working… I do hope it’s worth it… ( just bein the bitch that I am…) ha ha

Cheers… I’m outta here…

Alamak… I dunno how I’m gonna cope with work and law school. All the books I have to read, all the case laws I have to research and READ! Why didn’t I pick some other course that was less demanding, like everyone else….? Sometimes I can be too dumb for my own good lah. The amount of stuff I have to read is scary ah… Like one book is not enough, I have like 4 books to read on one subject and several other case laws, law journals etc etc.

Haiya…. Stress ah… How lah….? Now that the financial thingy has finally been taken of, It’s the education thingy that’s gonna be the thing that’s gonna KILL ME!!! ARGH!!!

Come to think of it, I think I am just scared ah. I’m gonna do my degree and the pressure is really on. My mom’s spent a shitless amount of money on me and my degree. I can’t let her down this time. Education is one thing, and me building my future starts now. I can’t spend the rest of my life depending on Shaun or my parents.

My dad was right to say "how long do you think Shaun’s going to support you? He’s going to stop one day when he’s had enough." Papa is right. It’s ok now i suppose, since both of us are working now. He’s gym, hopefully opening soon. (Looks like I’m the lucky wan… I stayed…) But what will happen when the money stops coming in, like it is now…? What happens when only one of us is working and the other is just doing nothing…?

It’s really hard to think about it lah now, we don’t really know what’s going to happen in the future. My parents are bugging me to get married (yes i know, there have been alot of not so subtle hints) and there are others out there who are bugging me to have a kid…

Alamak, pls lah… I am not going to be one of those who stay home and do nothing but cook, clean and look after the family. I’m not saying that it’s bad, I have lots of friends who are very happy doing that, and I respect them and all but it’s just that I’d rather do that when i’ve turned 60 or something or when my life is fully established and I have a shitload amount of MONEY!!!

My mom’s a career woman… Look at how i’ve become…. Career’s important, especially living in Singapore. I’ve got to pick up the pace. I’m not going to survive with just a diploma. I’m not going to survive earning minimal income for the rest of my life. Hey, I’ve even got investments going on ah… don’t play play… But the time i’m 36 and if i’m not married, at least I can afford my own house without the help of my parents. Also, have enough money to be a single parent… (like real… u know I can’t stand kids… But JJ’s sssssssssooooooooo cute cannot make it!!!) Sigh…. I still don’t feel any better… After saying that man…

i just hope that with all the shit that I’ve got to put up with now, with school and all the financial stuff, it will all benefit fit me in the future. I just wish that it would be in the near future…

Things that I’ve decided to change in my life:-

1. Lifestyle (No more drinking this old body of mine cannot take it anymore, getting too old and at 27yrs man that’s old…);
2. Still trying to quit smoking so that’s that;
3. My mens rea, Gotta be somebody in life, man… ;
4. Education. Heading back to school, finally getting my bloody degree!!! Yoo-hoo!!! Thanks Mama, she’s paying for everything… Lucky me ah…?
5. Place of Accomodation. I need to find me a plc to stay. Somewhere near school and work. I cannot take the travelling time…
6. FRIENDS. But then again, my friends will know if they are wanted in my life still or not… Can’t help it, I’m a Pisces.
7. Excel at WORK!!! Just fucked 4 documents today and I feel like FUCK!!!!
8. Last and finally not least, to be a better person for my poohbear… He deserves it after being there for me no matter wat. Even thru the endless PMSes, endless everything. 1 yr down… 2 more years to go… (tat makes 3 yrs wat…. still have time for everyone to come down…)

That’s about it for this 1/4 part of the year… Thanks for reading my blog, if you are… (but y?). Will catch ya’ll sometime mid-year.

Cheers

It’s been a while since I last updated my blog; so here it goes. (Sometimes I really wonder how anyone can ever find the time to read my blog, so ridiculous…)

I’ve started a new job in a new company. Funny how I say that I am now working in a gym and ppl actually expect me to be a trainer or an instructor. I’m truly flattered man… I didn’t know that I look that fit, ha ha.

Anyways, it’s a sales job and I’m trying very hard to keep up with the rest of them. I tried to resign, but they changed my mind. So reckon i’m goona stay for a while longer.

Apart from that Life’s been the same. Nothing much has changed except Shaun’s training now(yes we’re still together), crossing fingers that he’ll get a contract a.s.a.p. he’s dream would finally be fulfilled, one of his dreams, for now, at least.

I’ve tried being good, and I must say, I am an Angel now. Even my parents cannot believe how i’ve changed. In less than a yr, I have changed most dramatically. Visited my parents for Hari Raya, it was so wierd. Finally for once in my life, my parents like my bf. My dad surprised me the most, he never speaks to any guy I bring home to introduce to the family. But Shaun, it was so funny really. My mom’s totally in love with Shaun, I reckon. She actually asked when we were getting married.

I think after all that i’ve been thru, I don’t think I am ready for marriage. I definately want to build my career before I get married. The same goes for Shaun, I suppose. After all the shit that’s happened, this time i know that he wants to take things slow. We have all the time in the world to have Kids later, Kid I mean….

I’m a membership consultant now, with which gym, i will not say. It’s really hard especially when I’ve never done direct sales ever in my life. Anyone of you(I still can’t believe you are reading this) have any pointers, drop me a line.

Till then… Cheers ya’ll…

I hate my boss I am proud to say it aloud, perhaps I shall do it again I HATE MY BOSS!!! I FUCKING HATE HER!!!!

Now i feel a little better.

I love my job, hard to believe yes i know, but i cannot stand her fucking guts. She’s a bloody pariah! She fucks the documents up and she blames me for it. How fucking ridiculous is that? How can i be blamed for something that I didn’t bloody do ah? Cannot make it ah she!

I have tolerated her bullcrap for 2 months and I cannot take it anymore. I finally found a job that I like that this is wat happens.

I am contemplating resigning after this morning, I am definately resigning. She had the nerve to tell me that there was a trial this morning that she didn’t know of. Now how can that be, when everthing that comes in, I have to show her before she returns the documents to me so that I file them into the file. So obviously she would have read the documents. I even put the date down in my calender, which I put up for her so that she can look at the calender and see wat matters she has to attend to on which days. She can bloody tell me tat she didn’t know of the trial ah… Stupid rite she? Sometimes I really wonder, where in the world did she get her degree and her masters from lah? She doesn’t know her work, she ill treats me, she’s unappreciative, she too damn much. I really cannot take it anymore. I’m just so sick and tired of it.

Stupid toothache’s killing me…. I cannot take it… It’s so ridiculous having the drink soup and mashed potatoes. How retarded is that?

A couple more days to dad in law’s birthday… So much to do so little time! The damn catering company has yet to confirm with me w.r.t food. I have no idea how much beer to buy… Argh!!! my toothache’s KILLING ME!!!

Anyone interested in doing kick-boxing? it’s $30 per session for 45 mins… Sorry ya’ll this is the discounted rate. or if you’re interested in personal training, it’s $60 per session for an hour. Also discounted rate… My bf’s the trainer… If anyone of you interested let me know or call me…? Pls don’t ask me if it can be lowered… It’s as low as it gets…

Thanks ya’ll…

Cheers have a good weekend

Let’s see… The weekend was relatively eventful.

We didn’t really do anything fabulous  but hey, spending time with your loved ones is worth every minute.

Shaun had a football game yesterday; I was there with him. Everything was going fine until the last few minutes of the game when there was a fight. Funny how a game can turn so serious. I was just glad that it had nothing to do with Shaun. hehe

We watched Pirates of the Caribbean Dead Man’s Chest on saturday. Damn!! Orlando Bloom is so cute, cannot tahan lah… Johnny Depp, he’s unbelievable. I really really think playing Capt Jack Sparrow is one of his bestest roles ever. I cannot stop laughing everthing he says "Oh Bugger" He makes it sound so sexy really. It’s one of those movies where I don’t mind watching it a second time.

The previous saturday, I think, we watched Superman… Haiya it’s such a disappointment. I just cannot wait to watch Tom Welling in the next superman movie. This Superman is really crap! He didn’t do justice to C. Reeves at all… He like so "spastic" if you know what I mean. He made Superman look more nerdy than he really is. Lois Lane, even worst… She’s not Lois in any way… But I must say, the ending really really got to me. It’s so sweet how Superman sat beside his kid and recited everything he’s father recited to him. I shed a tear.. But then, I shed tears all the time when the show’s touching… If ya’ll haven’t caught the movie… Sorry man, I gave it away… ha ha if you have, let me know wat you think…

Till then, Cheers ya’ll…